I was woken up around 1 am and it’s 5.30. A class is waiting for me at 10.00. I need to leave at around 8.30. What can I do now? Sleeping isn’t an option anymore since I’ve been lying on my bed for a couple hours.
Bad news! The neighbor upstairs is up, starting making noise. I just can’t help feeling angry cause they do this all the time. Last time was 1.30am and it’s 5.44. Probably made by different people but it’s really annoying.
I don’t feel too well. I forgot when the last time it was that I had headaches five days in a row. It was killing me. Then yesterday morning I skipped a class, the one about mindfulness. Something is definitely wrong cause while I was cutting a pear with a knife, I look at my wrist of left hand and had an urge to cut it. Of course I didn’t do that. Also the word death kept coming to my mind. Suddenly it does not seem like too bad an idea.
These are signs I’ve noticed. I probably have to do something before things getting worse. On the other hand, I don’t really feel that bad and I’m taking my mess regularly. Not sure what I should do.
Almost 6 am perhaps I should get some rest but the problem is I don’t want to think too much now. As soon as I close my eyes, something unpleasant just appears.
I don’t know why I’m typing probably because I’m too lazy to talk. In fact, i’m using my iPhone. It’s definitely faster to talk or it’s not?
I told my students that sometimes they can use their phone to practice English. Just set it to English mode, use the microphone, and see what comes out of the screen and they can tell if their pronunciation is right or wrong. I don’t know about native speakers, but when I speak in Chinese a lot of time I need to correct some mistakes.
A bit sleepy. I found if I speak slower, then the words show up on the screen are mostly right but if I speak faster, then there are always something I need to correct.
What else can I say? I really don’t know. I should just go to bed. Well I am on my bed already ha ha. Good morning and have a good day!