I really wonder how people can keep a diary for a long time. Life’s pretty much the same every day. I’m not sure what else I can say. Those people who have a lot to say much have a colorful life.
I didn’t get up until noon again. I tried to prepare classes for next week, but I didn’t do a good job. I’m not sure why it’s getting more and more difficult to teach these days. I don’t enjoy teaching as I used to. Not sure what I can teach my students. How I can help them learn English well. Suddenly, I’ve lost my confidence. And that’s why I feel so anxious now.
However, there’s another reason why I feel like this. I ran out of my lithium and it might be the reason why I feel so tired and have no confidence. It’s only been a week, but will I feel better after I take lithium again?
I really have to go to bed early. Tomorrow I’m going to see the doctor and perhaps she can give me some good suggestions, can she? I haven’t seen this doctor for a couple of years. We had some arguments before I started to see another doctor. Before that I had seen her for over ten years and we kind of know each other pretty well. I miss her in some way. I’m a bit nervous about see her again.
Besides, tomorrow I’m going out with some friends. It should be fun, but I don’t feel excited at all. I’m not sure why. Time for bed. I’ve been watching so many Ted talks now I feel like I can make a speech myself, haha. Time like this just don’t think and let it flow. Good night.