潔西的潛意識日記 十九

哇!第十九天,真不可思議。大家都來寫日記吧! Perhaps I should write in English sometimes. No way! Everybody will know how bad my writing is, nor is my Chinese writing any better.

What I want to talk about is the video I recorded last night, well, probably after midnight. This morning I woke up at around 6 a.m. It’s just way too early for me. Not sure why I just woke up. Normally I was woken up by the noise my neighbor made. This morning it was quiet when I woke up.

I don’t remember what I did this morning. I’m just too forgetful these days. Anyway, I was checking my YouTube channel, and realized that I uploaded a video last night, which I wasn’t aware of until then. I was going to call it 非意識,because it’s not conscious, neither is it unconscious, then I thought of the word subconscious. Or perhaps it shouldn’t be called subconscious.

Ah, I know the word, under the influence, but not of alcohol. It’s the sleeping pill’s side effect. Most sleeping pills I have taken do this to me. I would do strange things or things I wanted to do but didn’t do, like eating some snacks. I tried going swimming once. I was lucky that I wasn’t drowned. I remember peddling the bicycle and found it difficult and was wondering what was wrong with the bike. I sometimes cooked or went out to the convenience store to buy food.

It’s scary that I do things while I wasn’t conscious. I used to send messages to my students and asked them out for dinner. Actually I chatted with my student for over an hour and I had no memory of that until I saw the messages. Taking sleeping pills is a necessary evil. It’s a tough decision. Believe me! It’s not just that easy to quit. There are all kinds of reasons and excuses of course.

Well, time for bed again. I don’t know why I feel so tired today. I got up early but I took a nap in the afternoon, but still I felt exhausted when I walked home today. Normally I enjoy walking home, but tonight I was dragging myself home. Oh my goodness. Whatever, writing diary is not like wiring a composition. It can be really bad and no one should complain about it. Ha ha. 99

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  1. steven hsu 說道:

    well, thanks to the conscious to write down diary and, most special one its in english, it will be grateful by all readers (like me) as they can do the same way on learning. sleep tight ^_^

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