I guess I’m a bit depressed. Well, maybe more than a bit I have to say. This has been going on for a while and I don’t know why I didn’t notice it earlier. I’m not tearful or very emotional. I guess this makes it a bit subtle to realize. How did I find this out? I have no energy. I feel tired very day. I don’t feel happy. And one thing hit me hard is that I was thinking to take a day off from work cause I don’t really feel like working at all. Every time I don’t want to go to work, there is probably something wrong. I love teaching and most of time I have a good time. If I don’t want to go to work to see my lovely students, something has gone very wrong. ha ha. Also when I went swimming today, I found out that I am not happy. I don’t enjoy things I used to love. Some small things can make me happy but not now. It takes some much to make me smile. I don’t want to go out, I don’t want to do things, and doing anything is an effort. Something wrong. Not right. POF is my excuse but it’s been three weeks. I guess it’s about time I face it and deal with it. Good luck! I’ll have to say this to myself and tell myself everything will be fine. I know, as it always is but the process, the waiting. When it hits the bottom, it will have to come up. and sometimes you might have to struggle and fight to get out of there sooner. sigh. bed time.